i'm like that character in a book that doesn't exist.
after everything, the person i've helped most turned away from me. i help her reach the top of a mountain and she pushes me down it. not literally, but it hurt as much. i helped them reach their goal, and in turn they knocked me down.
why?

this post was supposed to be fiction, but it turned into nonfiction.
 [posted here, too.]

xoxo,
jessie

Liebster Award

So, normally I don't do awards, but I couldn't resist this one. XD 



Liebster Award Rules:
Acknowledge the blog that nominated you.
Answer the 11 questions the nominating blogger created.
List 11 bloggers with less than 200 followers that deserve some recognition.
Post 11 questions for them to answer.
Notify them that they've been nominated.

Thanks so much for awarding me, Rose!


QUESTIONS:
1. If you had a unicorn, what would you name it?
Maybe Celestial...
2. How would you react if I told you my dog could tweet like a bird? o.O
YOURS, TOO?!? XD
3. What's your opinion on One Direction?
Meh.
4. <-- FOUR! *cough* Who is your favorite author?
Seriously? -_- Well, since I'm in the middle of 13 Gifts, for now I'll say Wendy Mass.
5. Are you more of a writer or a reader?
I like writing, but I'm not so good at it, so I guess I'm a reader.
6. Choose your faction: Dauntless, Amity, Erudite, Abnegation, or Candor? [and if you don't know what any of those are, you need to go RIGHT HERE, RIGHT NOW].
Welll, I've never read Divergent. :P
7. Do you enjoy answering questions?
Yes! ;)
8. Who/what is your alter ego?
Umm I'm not sure...
9. Left handed or right handed?
Right.
10. How's the weather today?
Sunny, but cold. o.O
11. How much wood would a woodchuck chuck, if a woodchuck could chuck wood? o.O
When I asked Siri that a whole ago, she asked if I had anything better to do. XD
MY QUESTIONS:
1. Canon or Nikon?
2. Sunny day or rainy day?
 3. Would you want to wear pink or orange?
4. Fall or Spring?
5. What's your least favorite food?
6. Math or science?
7. iPad or iPod?
8. Pen or pencil?
9. Chocolate or vanilla?
10. Blog, or read blogs?
11. Pizza or ice cream?
(sorry about all the stupid this or thats. XD)

NOMINATIONS:
I nominate...

Sarah at A Free Mind
Ice Girl at Fashion and Figure Skating
Jessica at Whispers of the Wind
Emma Kate at simply inspired
Mackenzie at think. eat. write. read. 
Max Tron at gingerlion's
Rachel at Confessions of a Daydreamer
Emma at Infinity
Anna at Hero
Kayla at Laugh 'an Love
 ...and anyone else who wants to do it!

i'm off to notify the awardees! oh, and if you did it already and i nominated you, you don't have to do it again. ;)

xoxo,
jessie

every day




i figured since i barely have any posts about my life, i'd talk about it a bit. what i do every day is go to school, do homework, take pictures, go on the computer, watch a movie (that i already watched millions of times), read a book/s, and get eight hours of sleep. oh, and eat [cookies] and drink [coffee] and breathe [oxygen].
ususally i'm also annoyed by my siblings, forced to slave away [chores], and yawning.
school goes from fun to boring to horrible, then to fun again. sigh.

please ignore this rather interesting post...i promise, i'll write stories and stuff tomorrow. or maybe the next day...

xoxo,
jessie

currently

 
 
 LOVING:
gimp

 HATING:
gimp
 
DOING:
eating
reading
drinking coffee
(the usual)
 
LOOKING AT:
these photos <3
this flawless design done by this flawless girl

LAUGHING AT:
 this hilarious post
 myself.

WEARING:
sweater knitted by my granny
pajama pants (yeah, that is totally normal for me at a quarter to twelve, thank you very much.)
slippers (#idowhatiwant)

WONDERING:
if i'll end up hitting the publishing button for this post.

HOPING:
 that i won't because this is getting embarrassing.

xoxo,
jessie
p.s. 'lately' just transformed to currently, in case you didn't notice.
p.p.s. i posted it! can i have a cookie now? ;)

lost






going to the ocean is probably the best thing that could happen to me since starbucks coffee. just sitting there, watching the waves crash against the seashore brings be a sense of calmness. sometimes, when i just sit and watch the waves, i feel like i'm here. it's just so calming and refreshing.
#nostalgiafromoldphotos

xoxo,
jessie

neverland

 http://potofafrica.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/05/stock-footage-boy-and-girl-standing-on-beach-join-hands-then-both-deviate-back-silhouettes-at-sunset-evening1.jpg

let's go to neverland, he said. let's go to an imaginary place; and she agreed.
so off they went to the blue ocean, watched the seagulls soar over the horizon, and collected imaginary seashells. they went to an amusement park, went on every single ride, and picked up some lunch.
on that day, in neverland, they traveled to the most exciting places, relaxing places, adventurous places.
and then when they opened their eyes, she smiled and said "that was the best vacation ever."
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neverland doesn't exist. and i don't mean physically; i mean the word. neverland should be called alwaysland. simply because we all visit there - always.