things i wish i believe

 1. that i am beautiful, smart, special, and the like.

2. that my family cares.

3. that i have good friends at school.

4. that it "happens to everyone".

5. that i am not insecure.

6. that people "understand".

7. that dreams come true.

8. that i can be who i want to.

9. that "this too shall pass".

10. that it's okay to cry. a lot.

Yep. Sorry for all the depressing posts lately.

xoxo,
Jessie

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  1. ugh, i wished i believed it all too. but the only thing that keeps me going is believing that these times shall past, that this is just a rough patch, and that it will be better soon. and that i just need to take it day by day. i agree with christina, i believe in you.

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    1. mhm. it's just so hard sometimes. you do? <3

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  2. I understand. I love your posts. They just... I love them. I understand them. Thank you so much for being your beautiful self, Jessie. <3 You are beautiful, smart, special, and amazing, and so many other words. <3

    ~Anna

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    1. Woah. Thank you, thank you, thank you ever so much. You just made my day, week, month, year, whatever. <3 You are so amazing. I love you. <3

      xoxo,
      Jessie

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  3. jessica.
    dear jessie.
    you are just so talented, eh?
    all of those things are true.
    i love you girl.

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    1. thank you so much. <3
      i love you too!

      xoxo,
      Jessie

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  4. Ah, oh jessie! I know JUST watcha mean. Looks? Well, I know that God created me, and His creation is always good. Other people might not agree, but His opinion is the only one I worry about. =) Smarts? Eh, no, I don't have much of those...but God gave me plenty of talents, so I don't worry about it. And- yeah, I can relate to each if them at one time or another. I know what you feels; just Trust God. K? =)

    Xx and ♡♡ -Jenny

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    1. Thank you so much for writing this. :) Jenny, you are really beautiful. <3 Haha, well you're plenty witty, so it's okay. ;)

      xoxo,
      Jessie

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  5. Oh, Jessie, these things can be tough. Just know that I care and that we love you and think you're beautiful and special and the like; know that no bad thing has, or ever will, happen to you that hasn't happened to someone before, and that there is always a way out so that you may stand up under it (1 Corinthians 10:13); know that I too am insecure :) - very; and believe that dreams come true (listen to The Mouse). I'm sending you hugs, because you're Jessie. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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    1. JSYK, I plan on reading this every single day. Probably twice (or more). Because you're so amazing and these words just make me smile and want to send you hugs back. So... * hugs back *

      Love you. <3

      xoxo,
      Jessie

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  6. I beg your pardon? You are beautiful, ma’am. As I have witnessed, in the Lord's eyes you are truly His beloved, breathtaking daughter. "Man looketh on the outward appearance, but the Lord looketh on the heart." For me, I know that I am special and beautiful and perfect to Him, but to believe it can be so difficult. I look at all my physical flaws and sometimes wonder, “Why did I have to have all these? No one else is as imperfect.” But then, I am highly blessed to be this imperfect; because really, after what the world thinks passes away, I can see my reflection in the mirror and confirm my beliefs. That He loves me, cares for me, and comforteth my heart and soul. And dear, darling-est Jessie love, that moment of relief is just lovely. It's not worth it in the end, to ridicule yourself only because the world thinks you're unbeautiful. When you come to realise that God knew you were perfect the way he made you all along, it's indeed humbling.

    And what's all this about not being "smart" and "special"? Allow me to inform you that you are one of the most selfless, considerate, extraordinary people that God has led me to find. It doesn't matter in what context you use those two qualities, because man alive, are you special! You trust me with things weighing on your heart, and I can only hope to live up to being worthy enough to know even a particle of those tender feelings.

    Surely the Lord has great goodness in store for you; He is preparing your sunrise, and it will be magnificent. Close your eyes and envision how it will look: first, a thin sliver of icy sapphire creeps out from the current dark; the murky clouds begin to draw back, revealing a different shade of the sky; lavender ripples of cotton clouds diffuse, now uncovering apricot patches, illuminating the splendour of the lustrous golden billows rapidly teeming with light. The moment has come; in astonishment, you glimpse the rays gently sparkle, weak and translucent. The creamy stars and night-clouds fade, to remain absent as you find bliss in this glorious sphere of light, now shining in full grandeur. But, except you ever look forward and upward, you will not see it rise. We comprehend, then, the eternal significance of trusting in the Lord; for your day will come, Jessie. Remain faithful.

    xx Les

    P.S. – #shortestcommentever

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    1. I second Max Tron's comment.

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    2. First paragraph: It just makes me love you that much more. And believe me; if you have any flaws, don't worry. They are like nothing compared to the beautiful soul you have.

      Second paragraph: Just like...I can't. Every single thing you said about me, I have to say about you.

      Third paragraph: W-whoah. How do you even-- #breathlessandspeechlessandlikeyeah

      I love you. <3

      xoxo,
      Jessie

      P.S. #awesomestcommentever3><3

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